Since I last entered a blog entry, I have graduated college, I have accepted a promotion, and I have left my world behind and moved to Alaska. This has possibly been the greatest step in faith I have taken. I accepted the new job with great trepidation and fear. I have carried so much baggage from Raleigh to Denver with the hopes to shed it all. And now I am wondering what the future even looks like. There really is no direction out here but up.
A friend of a friend invited me to join a community. Community is vastly underrated when it comes to how I view my social life. Facebook is not a social life no matter how much I try to make it that way. Facebook doesn't enhance anything about my life. In fact, Facebook brings into sharp relief all the things that I miss out on. Parties and outings with friends I left behind are documented with great clarity.
I don't feel depressed by any stretch of the imagination. I just feel called to return to a lifestyle that is far more humble than I have been living. I was asked recently how my prayer life was, and it is non-existent. In a way, realizing this is a tremendous grace. Say a prayer that I remember to say a prayer and be thankful for a wonderful opportunity here in the final frontier.
I always told the teens in the youth program I served, 'in the world you will have trouble, but take courage, I have overcome the world." There is nothing to be sad about. I've missed many opportunities in the past. I have regrets that could fill an encyclopedia. I have learned more than I should have. And mostly, I've learned to be patient. I can only do what I can do. For the rest, I will wait.
